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Re: friending policy, this journal is 99% public, and you're free to add, unadd, and/or comment at will. If you want me to friend you back, tell me what we have in common and how you found me (a reply to this entry would be okay) and I'll see what I can do.

2007 // 2008 ( film. ) ( literature. ) ( television. ) ( links. )

( stories. ) ( in progress. )

The power outage is indeed not just an accident - it's suspended for a reason and still going on. It reminds me of those movies where an unemployed twentysomething gets his power cut off, except I don't live alone, I like staying in, and the problem is neither my fault nor mine to fix (nor mine to know about, which is the most frustrating part - it's hard not to freak out when my father refuses to tell anyone anything). I could not use my laptop at all yesterday, and I'm at the library at the moment, hoping the battery will charge fully by 8:45PM (it's 8:27PM, 66%) so I can use it at home for a while. I foresee a lot of time spent here, though hopefully our power will come back soon (she says as though it depends on the elements). Things that are not functional at the moment: microwave oven, normal oven, toaster, coffee-maker, TV, DVD player, laptop, lights, fridge, freezer... it adds up. Mostly it is killing me not to have Scrivener, to be honest. It's killing me not to have much I can do at all - I went to bed at 10:40PM last night.

So basically I'm reading. I finally finished Thanks for the Memories by Cecelia Ahern, which started off well but left me cold, and I'm talking about the story here, not just the amateurish writing. It's odd to outgrow authors like this - either that, or this book in particular is just worse than her other work. I've started reading Enduring Love, which is great writing and am honestly surprised by that, despite everything good I've read about Ian McEwan.

Anyhow, I should be - typing things up, I suppose. Going through tabs. Writing, actually, probably, though I don't have a lot of time to get into it right now. Unsubstantial entry, I know - figured I'd check in. I was already minus wireless so technically you guys shouldn't expect me to be around much in the first place, but now it's even less likely, I suppose? Though it's not like I have much to do at home without power, so there's a chance I might become more active instead. I'll just... miss things. Like the Idol tour. I'm trying to keep up for the sake of my... craft, whatever, but it's not easy. Still! Trying to be positive. Detached optimism, I keep telling myself, though emotionally it's more like complete denial. I'm good at denial.

There's no power in my house right now, hasn't been for the last hour and a bit, and my laptop battery's at 22% with no means to charge it which is nuts because I don't know what to do. I picked up The Late Hector Kipling just now and finally finished the third chapter—I got to page thirtysomething last summer and started over a month ago and really, I should take bets, Will I ever finish this book? I don't know. I actually really like it. The last time I really liked a book but could not manage to finish it, it was Mrs Dalloway and it took me thirteen or fourteen months to finally get there. So I may be right on time with this one, two months to go, actually got past the point I was at when I gave up on it last summer so you know. Blame David Thewlis for my run-on sentences.

Anyhow, no power. Really, what do I do? I want to write but longhand is terribly slow for me right now—always has been, but I haven't had a lot of practice lately and so it's even slower now, and I have trouble visualising the whole of a story on paper, plus all my notes are on my laptop for this one and that's a lot of notes I'm talking about. There was a moment yesterday when there was more fic in the notes than in the actual file, which is actually a good thing as far as I'm concerned if I can actually access those notes.


Bones season 1: done. Might take a break from the show after this. Somehow it feels like something, having finished the one season—something solid and individual, even though the finale's not exactly conclusive, more like a pre-winter hiatus episode than a finale on its own right. It was a good episode for Booth, though, I thought. Look, I'm a total girl for Bones—this is the show I began to watch because people's speculation of Booth's love for Brennan made my heart do cartwheels, and because I love banter. The show's not as good in the banter department as I expected, but it more than succeeds in having Booth be a... modern classic gentleman of sorts, you know, the ideal boyfriend. The cases are good sometimes, and Angela kicks ass and Hodgins is a sweetheart, but at the core I'm watching for Booth, might as well admit it.

I watched Merlin 1x08 yesterday morning and feel this is as good a moment as any to admit that, while the name 'Mordred' was familiar, I had to look it up (in my dashboard dictionary, because I have no wireless I can access from my room) to find out what his role in Arthurian legend was. I had also never heard of Nimueh (or any of her other names) before I became interested in this particular Merlin fandom. Basically, there is so much that is completely foreign to me regardless of how peculiar the show's interpretation of the myth is that it's somewhat easier to me to approach it as though there's a happy ending coming and no doom lurking in the corners at all. And then I watched 1x09 last night and really, it's somewhat hard for me to wrap my head around that whole dichotomy between the relatively modernised character dynamics (and speech) and the fact that they just... kill people (and don't much care).


So anyway. No power. Despair.

I miss my wireless SO FUCKING MUCH right now. Like. I need it back. NEED IT. It's not easy to live like this. The only place I can leech off someone else's connection is my backyard, and my backyard is hot as stuff from like, eleven in the morning to eight at night, plus you know laptops, they bring their own heat, and I can't. I don't even have a proper table I can type at. I have like, a dozen comments to reply to right now, and IIRC the Idol tour starts today and I want to hear Hey Jude and I want to hear Georgia On My Mind and I'm sure there'll be videos of dubious quality tomorrow but my neighbours' AC makes a shitload of noise that can just not be avoided from my backyard, and just. Suckity suck suck. This is a horribly long entry, and you know why? Because I have no wireless and my thoughts accumulate. SORRY. It is all labeled for your convenience.

iMeme because I'm bored:

List six of your favorite TV shows and answer the following questions. (I'm behind on most of my shows right now so these are pretty random.)
1. How I Met Your Mother / 2. Friday Night Lights / 3. Gilmore Girls / 4. Grey's Anatomy / 5. Leverage / 6. Bones
( cut! )

You know, there's something to be said for writing a second-person Kara-centric fic and having someone include it on a second-person-hatin' Adam-centric rec list. That something is: EEE. Eloquent, I know. IDK, it's validating. Which is kind of hilarious because I hate second person myself, but there you go.

Speaking of Adam Lambert, I'm going to follow pirateygoodness's example and say: go vote for someone who is not him on the Ultimate HBIC poll. Please. Including Adam in this game is fun, sure, and I probably gave him my vote during the ~preliminaries~, but to actually see him beating all the female characters on that poll makes my stomach churn. Let us not dwell on the fact that he should not be included on the final poll in the first place and say: strong female characters are wildly underrepresented in fandom—do you realise what kind of message this sends? I know it's not serious business, and I'm not even into any of the girls on that poll*, but just. Come the fuck on, fandom, it's not a big deal, no, but it's not a painful thing to stick up for the quite rare kickass-in-the-literal-sense-of-the-word female characters, is it? No, it is not. So why not just do it?

* I didn't pay attention to the whole thing until I realised there's drama about it. If I had been, I might have picked, I don't know, Miranda Bailey. CJ Cregg. It's complicated for me because I'm not much for HBICs in the sense that they have to conform to a loose but specific definition of "bitch" (Tyra Collette! Cristina Yang! Kim Kelly!) and be in charge of something substantial (Tami Taylor! Temperance Brennan!) (which btw Adam is not). FWIW, I picked Laura Roslin because she seems like my kind of HBIC.

( blah blah about my inability to finish fic. ) Hmmm what else. I can talk about not-fic-related stuff, I swear. OH RIGHT MERLIN. ( About that! And also about Bones s1. )

And I just read this which's been stored under the "to-read" tag on my del account for maybe five months and cried WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME.

That is all. For now~

I can't believe I wrote this. :/ Remember when I said I always got more written when I had a deadline for something, but what I wrote was always something else, and then I had to finish what I'd originally intended to at the last minute?

Well, this is one of those distractions.

title: Hold That Thought
fandom: Freaks and Geeks
pairing: Lindsay/Kim, implied Kim/Daniel and unresolved Daniel/Lindsay
rating: mature
word count: 2269
notes: For the prompt "Freaks and Geeks, Lindsay/Kim, favorite" at femslash_today's porn battle.

summary: Um, this is 60% incoherent and hopefully amusing rambling inner monologue + 40% schmoopy f/f smut. That's pretty much it.

( Hold That Thought )

One down, two to go before Sunday. *g*

title: Gonna Close My Eyes
fandom: American Idol 8 RPF
characters/pairings: Kara DioGuardi, (outsider's PoV on) Kris/Adam, implicit one-sided Kara/Matt
rating: mature
word count: 5056
warnings: extremely mild voyeurism; second person narration
disclaimer: I don't know these people. I made this up.
notes: For my cliche_bingo "second person narration" square. This is what happens when I want to do a character justice: I'm so terrified I write about someone else first (or someone elses: I have a Matt-centric story in the works as well). Watch me tread slowly and fearfully towards Kris/Adam, do. It will happen, I swear.

summary: And then there's Adam, who lingers a little too long, and you know that's going to turn into instinctual magnetism for Kris, you know they're going to start drifting towards each other without even thinking about it; they're not going to know that this, what you're beholding right now, is exactly the reason why.

( Gonna Close My Eyes )

Fic round-up for the first half of the year! And because I need to figure out my tags now that I'm going to start posting fic here, and because I'm not moving anything from cherryroad to here so a chronological round-up seems like a good way to keep track. Anyway, I added a little ♣ to the stuff I'm actually proud of on reread, and that's all you need to know.

Well, and remember that meme, the one that goes like, "Ask me to do a DVD commentary for one of my fics"? Feel free to pick a story if you want. I'll probably just throw a couple paragraphs about it together in the comments unless it's too long or I feel like talking. Or also possibly I might record my thoughts. Surprise~!

( cut for length, obvs )

As of today, my sister is officially a teenager.

This feels wrong somehow.

Anyhow, I watched three movies in the last couple of days, so:

1. Burn After Reading was actually surprisingly ridiculously fun. Not laugh-out-loud funny, but I don't usually laugh during movies, so I have no idea how that translates on the comedic success scale. It was very entertaining, though; fast-paced, snappy, a cast that worked, not a boring minute... it was editing heaven. The only other Coen movie I've ever seen is No Country for Old Men, which literally bored me to tears, so I wanted to watch this one because of the trailer but was scared I'd hate it. I did not. I also did not expect ( major spoiler ), which apparently is kind of a common Coen thing, pulling cold shocks like that. I am in turn more open to their previous cinematic endeavors now. I don't think this movie's gonna change anybody's life, but it definitely lightened mine up for the hour and a half it lasted.

2. Ghost World was... okay. ( Cut for length. )

3. Night at the Museum, the first one, I watched pretty much just because my sister borrowed it from the library and I want to watch the new one for Owen Wilson, who I for some reason (read: he's not billed on the DVD) thought wasn't in the first one, but he was and... well, I mean, I liked the movie, it was entertaining and had a decent cringeworthy moments/non-cringeworthy moments ratio, but I got so excited over Jedediah and Octavius, I don't even know. I blame fandomsecrets. And Carla Gugino is really pretty—this is actually the first time I ever watch her in something, but she looks so familiar. Seriously, though, I love Owen Wilson. I find him so fucking adorable.

Speaking of adorable, you know what I hadn't realised until I looked at some caps I took of a recent interview yesterday? Matt Giraud's smile is kind of... girly, in this really pretty way. I did not expect that. And: does anyone else think it's hilarious (and/or ridiculously annoying) that they tell you downloading pirated movies is illegal on original DVDs? It's like, hey, you got hold of this DVD legally, but we know you're a criminal, don't think you're fooling anybody by paying in some way for this one movie! We are watching you~~ I don't know, it's so fucking useless. It delays my movie watching and makes me wish I'd downloaded it instead.

Oh, and I posted icons. Idol stuff, mostly, and some Friday Night Lights, A Cinderella Story, Meg from Veronica Mars. In case you're interested. (Interested because there's quite a shortage of decent-looking Idol icons out there, which is why I made them in the first place: I needed them myself.) P.S., I think I'm going to spam you guys a bit today. I'll be posting a fic round-up for the past six months in a few minutes so I can tag it and by the way figure out how I'm going to be tagging my fic here, and also most likely the cliche_bingo fic I mentioned yesterday. It'll all be neatly cut though so you won't have to scroll too much.

Reply to this meme by yelling "Words!" and I will give you five words that remind me of you. Then post them in your LJ and explain what they mean to you.

blossomslut gave me these: ( cut for length. )


So I'm trying to lure myself back into my J2 big bang with thoughts of Waverly Place and minimalist restaurant decoration. I think I'm gonna try ficfinishing this month, even out what I have (and possibly also porn it up a tad) and write what's missing, hopefully get it done by July 15 so I have enough time left to revise and have it betaed and Ameripicked a couple of times. What this means is I need to finish the three things I'm in the middle of right now in the next four or five days so I can lay all my writerly attention on J2.

Anyway, I could really use a beta for one of those three things right now, since it's about two paragraphs away from being finished. 4,000 words, Kris/Adam, R, outsider's second-person (said the cliche_bingo square) point of view. You can take your time, I'm not in a rush to post it. Anyone up for that?

Randomly, I kinda want to move my fic back to this journal. Or, you know, start posting here. IDK why, I just... do, I guess. Maybe the paid account and extra userpics, or not having to log out to reply to feedback and edit entries, or... I don't know. On the one hand I like having a good tag system and a single fic journal where I know I'm not bothering anyone with my fic entries, but on the other hand I'm kind of ridiculously lazy and hate, hate, hate crossposting and, as far as tagging goes, I already del all my fic by date/fandom/pairing/rating/category/etc. anyway. Should I?